We just finished producing a new intro video for this ministry. Just wanted to put it up here – you can find it on my media page under “Introduction”. Hope you enjoy it – let us know what you think!

I just had the one of the longest 24 hour periods of my life.

A couple of weeks ago I had my annual checkup at the OB-GYN and after examining me she told me I should have a mammogram just in case. It was probably nothing, and not to worry.

So I didn’t worry, and I made an appointment. I didn’t really like going through the big “Cancer Center” doors, but I figured that was where they do this kind of testing even when it’s routine and I needed to get over it. They told me I would hear in a week to ten days.

A week later I was thinking through what had to happen that day: several important calls, some email, final planning for an event that weekend, taxi driving for my kids. The phone rang and it was the Cancer Center telling me that they saw something and needed me to come in for further testing.

Right there, all my seemingly important stuff immediately became unimportant.

Let me back up. I remember when my dad was diagnosed with Lou Gehrig’s Disease (ALS), he told us that he’d felt like God had been preparing him for something for several years. Lately, I’ve been feeling the same way, as if God has been preparing me. Now, I’m not going to lie, I have obviously been rooting for the scenario where something really big and important was going to happen to me so I would need to be prepared, but I know very well that just as often, the things we are preparing for aren’t pleasant.

I was thinking about this very thing during my Bible study a couple of weeks ago, before any of this happened. The study asked what hard thing we were afraid of, and if we thought we could do it with the Lord’s help. My immediate thought was cancer. And I was surprised and so encouraged that when I tested that in my mind, my first thought was to pray, “Thank you, God – You have changed my heart, and I know that even if I had to go through cancer, I would be okay, because You are big enough, and You would be with me.” How He has changed my heart! I have always struggled with fear, but with all our family has been through, God has taught me over and over that He carries us when we have nothing left, and that even when everything else is gone, He is with us.

So I went back for more testing. They took several pictures and then I waited for the radiologist. They came out and told me they needed more pictures. I waited again. Then one more picture. More waiting. Then a different person came out and told me I needed an ultrasound. At this point, I knew something was up. I was alone in that office, but I was never alone – I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that God was there with me, and He had the whole situation in His hands.

I watched the screen during the ultrasound and saw the technician zoom in on something large and black. She started marking the dimensions and taking pictures. Well, there it was. I guess this is where we’re going now. Okay, God.

After ten minutes I finally said, “So, that’s what we’re looking at, that black thing?” She said, “Yes,” and then hesitated. “I’m not supposed to say anything to you.” I said, “Oh, of course, sorry.” Then she hesitated again and said, “Black’s good. We like black. But I didn’t tell you.” And she smiled. That was the first time it occurred to me that I could have something, but it could be benign.

Ten minutes later the doctor came in and told me it was nothing to worry about, totally benign, and we didn’t even have to check it again until next year. I’ve never felt such relief, and at the same time, I thought, “Thank you, Lord! I am so grateful that I don’t have to go down this road today, and yet I am so much more thankful to know that if I had, You would have been here with me, and You would have given me and my family everything we needed.”

Isn’t it amazing when God makes us stop and actually see some of the changes He has made in our hearts? I really like to feel in control, and I would love to get to tell the Lord how I would like Him to order my life and the lives around me, but I have learned that that would really not be as great as it sounds. God’s much better at being in charge than I am, and I’m so grateful that He’s taught me to trust Him. How is God teaching you to trust Him today?

Some fun things have come out this week as well. Autism Speaks published a guest blog from me as well as the video for “Your Child” which was great – I love all the different paths God is using to get that song out there and increase awareness for Sensory Processing Disorder!

Then, this morning, The Worship Community picked up the article as well and put it in as a health article. Loving it!

Worship at New Hope

I'm the green and tan dot at the piano. 🙂

I had a great weekend this weekend. I got to do two really fun ministry things, and they were both in my home city, so I got to do all that while hanging out with my family too.

On Saturday I went to a training day for Joni and Friends speakers. They were going to use the “Your Child” video in the conference, and since they knew I was local, they asked me if I would walk in at the end of the video as a surprise and share our family’s story for a bit. It was great to meet some of the people at Joni and Friends whose voices I know from the phone! It was also great to share with these people who are passionate about the rights of people with disabilities and to raise awareness for Sensory Processing Disorder.

Sunday morning, I went to New Hope Church, a church I’ve been with many times, to guest lead the worship on their services and do a little special music and presentation. This was really fun for me because their choir had learned the choir version of my song “God Loved the World” when they found out I was coming. We got to do the song with the choir and an 8 piece band, and that was pretty great for me! It was also just fun to catch up with all the people we know over there – so many friends, and their pastor, Steve, along with my dad married my husband and I.

I just had to post this because I am so grateful for the way the Lord is getting our new video for “Your Child” out there! Focus on the Family posted it about two weeks ago on their Facebook’s Pro-Life page and it stayed up at the top for only a couple of hours. We had over 1,700 likes and over 500 shares from that alone! Well, since then it’s been passed on and passed on. Today the video went over 20,000 views, and the comments and mail I am getting just touch my heart. There are so many parents out there in difficult circumstances who are loving their kids sacrificially. They are such a blessing!